A part time lover

relationship slavery
There's something on my mind which makes me unable to sleep currently , I must speak my mind at this moment. This is something very close to me because I went through it before or even more than a few times. I tend to give way too many chances for my ex , and that could lead to a abusive relationship between us. I am not going to push the blame to my exs. Let's put it in a nicer way , when we got together , I was too young , ignorant and of course immature. To be honest , I did not know how to fall in love or how to love my ex boyfriends. All my relationships were quite rowdy , it were never smooth for the both of us. We had more downs compared to ups , because we lacked of understanding. Break up had appeared countless of times in my mind whenever I had a tiff with my ex boyfriends. I did not mean I want to break up with that person whenever I said [Let's break up], because at that point of time I think we do love each other deeply. My exs got tired of my [Let's break up] phrase and I grew tired of he/she repeating the same mistakes over and over again. Some of my relationships had ended in a peaceful way while others not so peaceful. I used to forgive this person(let's named it A) , because I felt that A was my true love. Whatever A did , I would forgive because I tend to love A more than myself. It was a mistake to forgive A again and again , because I did not want to lose A at that moment. The cycle of relationship slavery began and repeated itself every time whenever we quarrelled over very stupid issues(Now when I think of it , it's very silly.) Till that point of time when I finally could not take it , I desired to end this vicious cycle of relationship slavery. So I let A know my decision , A was begging me to stay. It's too late A , you did not treasure me when you are with me. Of course I cried myself to bed almost every night, trying to forget every single details when I was together with A. The process was painful but it was worth it. You can love a person very much but please don't throw away your pride for that person. He/she might not worth it(just saying). Moreover please learn to love yourself more than your partner , you need it.
Work trip/ vacation with fam
Those pictures which I had posted were a short summary of my vacation / work trip. To my parents ,it was a family vacation but for me it was both. Yes I am starting something new : a fashion blog. I don't really "dare" to call it a fashion blog , it more like a little space for myself to post all my ootds. I went to various places such as Nan Jing , Dang Tu, Ma An Shan and lastly Huang Shan. My whole trip was either with my parents pls relatives or I am with my cousins. I spent 3days 2nights at Huang Shan. Although I hated to admit it , but the view from the peak of Huang Shan took my breath away. I think all of us should go and see it , trust me you will never regret it. Half day at Nan Jing shopping with my cousins, last minute shopping before I came back to Singapore. I am a woman , I need to shop. When you converted rmb to sgd , it's really cheap. However , you still need to bargain, because most of the stores owners tend to give you a random price or there's no price tag on any item. That only applied to some malls or shops in China. It may not work all the time( beware!) For the rest of my days , I am always staying by my parents' side , travelling with them. Somedays I'm at Dang Tu resting , other days I am at Ma An Shan resting. The reason why I had to travel a lot was my both uncles stayed at two different locations , my grandma was too feebly to travel . Hence I need to travel back and forth with my parents.
One side note :My flight was delayed for almost 3 hours, when I landed on Singapore it was 1:05 am. Next time I guess I won't be taking any direct flight to Nan Jing. Probably I would stop at Hong Kong for a few hours ( shopping !) and fly over to Nan Jing.
Back to your roots
This time I am not going back to hongkong which is my paternal side family but I am heading to my maternal side family. Of course I am going back with my parents. I don't remember when was the last time I travelled back to China An Hui. According to my mother's explain action , the last time I went back was more than a decade. Could you guys believe that? I was never close with any of them because I could not understand their dialect. This time I am giving myself a new chance to learn my maternal's culture. Hopefully I'll have fun in An Hui.

Mini vacation
It's finally sem break time for all the poly students! From 3-6 September, I went to Sentosa with Sylvia and Mona. For someone living in Singapore for almost a decade, I still have not been to universal studio. I know you guys are laughing at me(haha!). Since Sylvia wanted to go S.E.A aquarium ,Mona wanted to go adventure cove and I am interested to go USS. We just planned a trip to Sentosa. You could see Sylvia was my photographer through out my trip , which means she took all my outfit of the day (#ootd). There's more pictures in my Instagram and Facebook.