Keeping me alive
Most of the time I laughed at my own jokes , not because they were funny (although I feel that 80% were funny ) but I just enjoying mocking myself over and over again. My family members and few of my friends knew I'm a workaholic. I can't stop myself from working. ( To my future boss ,if you're reading it currently please give me a rise. Haha) I am a robot whom can't even stop "working ". Frankly speaking I love it when I know I have something to work on, which means occupying myself with something on my mind / hands.It's the easiest way to stop yourself from over thinking too much.
Gratitude
Honestly I asked myself over and over again, at the age of 19 did I achieve anything in life ? The answer would be yes , I did achieve something at the age of 19. Although I am not defined as smart or talented. In my peers or mentors' eyes I am consider to be one of the most hardworking person.(Thank you) For your information hardworking doesn't equal to smart. I started to pick up drawing , writing in the recent years. I never knew I could do it because of my low self-esteem. I was afraid. From zero knowledge to be able to drawing in ink.I should thanks my secondary school teachers , for showing unconditional love.Moreover I didn't even know that people do read my short stories , commented on it and asked me to write more.Actually that's more to talk about but I didn't want it to be lengthy. So I shall just end here , and off to bed. I really need to have a good rest. Good luck for those having their exams , goodnight
New chapter , a fresh new start
I am not going to comment anymore on my previous relationship with Mr Wong now, because it over between us. Anyway I hope Mr Wong is happy with his current girlfriend now, and I give him my blessing. In the process of moving on and entering into another relationship could be quite confusing for me. When I look into the eyes of my current partner , I realized I never regretted my decision of being with my partner at all. Even few of my closest friends told me I was much more happier compared to the past. I smiled really a lot recently , and both of my jaws are super sour due to the constant laughing.
Relationship? More like a relationshit
Fall out of love and fall in love recently with a new person recently. I hope this time this person gonna treats me right . Not going to have any expectations for her or anything . What hurts me the most is expectation, when the other party failed to live up to your expectation, you're disappointed in them. It's not their fault actually , but my fault. Because i always assume they would change and become a better person. I learnt not to have anymore expectation for anyone to prevent yourself from getting hurt again.